August 31, 2013

Fitting In

Most of you know that we picked up and moved to Dothan, AL in November, 2012. This move allowed me to become a stay at home mom which is the BEST thing in the world to me! I love every minute I spend with my three babies at home. I may get stressed and wore out and some days I may want to rip my hair out, but at the end of the day, it is truly, the greatest blessing. One of the challenges to staying home is trying to find "me" time. Week before last, I attended a MOPS group at Harvest Church here in Dothan. I am very excited about getting connected and meeting some new people. The group consists of about 40 women and we meet twice a month. The childcare is provided. I am very excited about joining this group. The past few months I have been in such a fog. I've been pretty down and felt like I was never gonna make it in Dothan. I haven't met many people and trying to follow up and hang out so that you can build friendships is very difficult when you have children. I started getting homesick. I wanted to go back to my home town where I had friends and we hung out in groups and our kids knew each other. Where we built a house and had neighbors we had known all our lives. It has been so hard. I felt myself sinking further and further in to this hole of "nobody". Wondering if I was ever going to fit in here? If anyone would welcome me in to their "circle"? A few weeks ago, we came and spent a couple of nights in Opp, Gregg had to work in Andalusia and Opp so we just stayed with my parents. One of my "long-lost" friends was also in town visiting her mom for the week. We spent an entire day together and when we had a little bit of conversation (between chasing the 6 kids) she told me that it took her about 3 years before she finally felt "at home" where she lives now. I then ran into one of the girls in Dothan I have met, and she told me something along the same line.. that it took her a couple of years. I'm feeling a little less hopeless now and am trying to make more of an effort to find friends and make connections. I can finally say that I'm feeling a little more positive about living here.  It really is a great city with a lot of opportunity for our family. I still feel like I have a long way to go, but in the right direction. We recently started going to a church that some of our "Opp Friends" have invited us to SEVERAL times and we've made excuses because of the size of the church and the fact that it is a satellite church sounded so strange to us. We finally gave it a try and the first week was a little.... different... we liked it.. but it was definitely different. The message was really good and because it was a series we decided to go the next week and then the next. I can really see us going more often. The kids LOVE going to their rooms and I had tears come to my eyes when I was holding my 2 year old Sunday afternoon and he tells me, "God's Way is PERFECT!". We have recently started memorizing scripture at our house and I have only been working with Kaidi and to hear Asher quote the scripture he learned at church that morning made me feel so great! (And awful because I had completely underestimated his ability to memorize scripture with Kaidi!) I was SO excited for him and so very proud of him. It is the cutest thing.

"As for God, his way is perfect: The LORD's word is flawless; he shields all who take refuge in him." Psalms 18:30

I'm Gonna finish there for the night. I've been working on this post for a few days now. I will return with some pictures from the month of August. Asher's birthday party, my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary, Playing in the rain and more! Have a GREAT Labor Day Weekend. We have absolutely NO plans at all. I kinda like it that way. Basically means we are going to be SUPER LAZY! :) Plus lil man is recovering still from his tubes/adenoids surgery he had on Thurs. He's not recovering quite as quickly as the other two did, but he did have a LOT more going on with his ears then they did. 

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