Saturday afternoon, my brother and his family came up to visit. They have a daughter, Addison, that just turned 3 in January. She was so excited to get to hold Kaidi. Can you see the excitement in her face? :)
When Gregg got out of his meeting for Saturday afternoon, we drove to the Opry Mills Mall and checked out a few of the stores before finding The Aquarium, which is a resturaunt where you eat basically surrounded by fish! The wait was pretty long so we decided to go to Tony Roma's instead. It was good. I got the sirloin and a corn fritter casserole which to me was basically a huge muffin! :) Kaidi did SO good at the resturaunt. She stayed in her carseat the ENTIRE time. I finally got her our after we all finished eating and she was so happy. I feel like she is teething or something because she was drooling all over the place and keeps her hands in her mouth all the time now.
After eating, we headed back to the hotel and Gregg and I packed our things and headed South. We left Nashville at 8 Saturday night, and got home around 2 Sunday morning. Sunday morning Kaidi and I went to big church while Gregg caught up on his sleep from the drive home Saturday night. After church we had a Sunday School Easter Egg get together where we grilled hamburgers and had a nice time of fellowship. We hid eggs for all the little ones. There are so many kids that are the same age. There weren't any kids there over the age of.. 4 I think. :) Brayden and Kenadi would have fit right in with this class. :) We got a picture of all the kiddos together. Miss Kaidi propped up on the couch for the pic.
Here are most of the kiddo's from the Sunday School Class.
Gregg left Tuesday morning for Montgomery and had to stay for 3 days for training for work. Kaidi and me went walking Tuesday night with Ashton and Caroline and then came home and enjoyed some American Idol. Wed. night I did a little bit of cleaning and played a lot with Kaidi. Gregg got in last night around 6 and we had Grilled Cheese and Chicken Noodle Soup for supper. :) We have a busy weekend planned. Opp is having their annual Rattlesnake Rodeo and Gregg has to take money at the gate tomorrow morning until 1. Kaidi and me may walk around and check out all the vendors and such for a little bit. After 1, we are heading to get some furniture for our new house. We move in a week from today and I am SO excited. I cannot wait to be spending every night over there. My nights have become tougher lately and I feel like it is because I know they are numbered at our house now. Last night I went and spent some time in the kids room. When it is night time, I can open the door to their room and see them laying in their beds like I would every night before. Then the wave of reality hits me and I miss everything. I miss them so much and I dream of what they would be like if they were still here. How they would be adjusting with Kaidi, how I would be adjusting to 3 under 3, how I would be decorating their room at the new house. What toys would they be playing with now, what songs would they be singing. It is so hard, the "What if's" I honestly think that is the hardest part to get over when you are greiving, mostly because you face it everyday. Before, I could have never imagined my life without B&K, and I still can't. They are there in my heart every morning, all through the day, every evening and through the night. Gregg came in there to comfort me last night and I told him that it still doesn't seem real. I flashback to the day it happened all the time. I relive the normal ride home from work until the ambulances passed in front of me. Then my entire life changed forever. I am not the same person anymore. I don't imagine I will ever be the old me again. That person died with B&K. I am a new me. One that, on some days, I don't like. I have some of the same old me in me, but I have changed a lot. I am still a positive person, but I have been punched with the raw fact that life sucks! And that it is out of our control. and that this world we live in is not perfect. I use to think my life was perfect. Had a good life. Sure, i had problems along the way but overall i could look at my life then and say that i truly loved my life. now, not so much. Everyday is a breath of grief. a glimpse of loss, a dream shattered. Sure I am still blessed beyond measures. I have a woderful husband who loves me when I don't love me, a beautiful baby girl who smiles all the time and fills part of my heart up with joy, Gregg and I both are employed, we have food to put on our table and we are building our dream house. But part of that dream house was for B&K. I know that I can fill it with stuff to remember B&K, but never will B&K be there in the flesh and that hurts because so much of this was thought out for them. so much of this was planned for them. ok, i have rambled on, i need to end this post.. it's getting long winded. I hope you all have a great weekend. Hope the weather is beautiful and we can all get out and enjoy some sunshine. God bless!