March 1, 2010

Busy Weekend


Wow, this past weekend FLEW by! Thursday night, we went and had dinner at the Sansom's house. We got a new picture of Kaidi and Caroline together. ( I will have to add it when I get home) Caroline is starting to slowly catch up with Kaidi. She is still much smaller! :) Friday night we went and spent the night out at my aunt's place at Gantt. We invited Ronnie and Ashton out there to eat with us and had a good time of fellowship with them. Gregg, Kaidi and I all slept in Saturday morning till about 9:30 and then we got up, cleaned up after ourselves and headed in to Opp to see the lights that the electrician was putting up in our house. I had to take some stuff back to Lowe's and Home Depot so Miss Kaidi and me loaded up in the Jeep and headed to Dothan. She was such a good baby. I stopped by Babies R Us and picked up a few summer things for her since she was so sweet. HA! :) I had a gift card that I was just itching to use! :) Sunday morning we got up and went to church and after church we came home and took a 2 1/2 hour nap! :) That was SO nice! Then we headed to Gregg's Granny's house to surprise her for her birthday. Her birthday was Saturday so we decorated her kitchen and dining room while she was gone to Dothan and when she got home we surprised her with cake and chips!







The latest on our house is a BIG BRIGHT YELLOW DOOR! I let Gregg choose the door color, since I had picked everything else in the house, and I drove up and nearly croaked there in the seat of my Jeep!

Does it look like Big Bird or what? I am still not 100% sold on it but was open minded and said I would leave it for a week or two to see if the caution light would grow on me. Gregg is "selling" to me that it will look better once we get rockers and plants on the porch and all the focus isn't only on the BRIGHT YELLOW DOOR! So, we will see... I may be heading to the store to buy some burnt orange paint pretty soon! What's your opinion?? Don't worry, you will Not hurt my feelings if you tell me it's ugly and I will not hold it against you if you like it! :) Promise! haha!!!
They are installing my cabinets right this minute! I went and checked out some of them and really like them alot! My bar/island is HUGENORMOUS! (if that is a word) it seats 5 people comfortably! WOW! Whats the point in having the breakfast nook?? :) I like all the colors we have picked out so far. I was a little scared about the Dining Room at first because it looked Lime Green before it dried but now it is much prettier! :)

I have finally got Brayden and Kenadi's headstone taken care of. This was not an easy task. It is something that you just aren't suppose to do, so having to scroll the internet looking for "ideas" was just crazy to me. I found one that I liked and sketched it on my CAD program at work and sent it around for some estimates and finally got a price I could work with. We are having their picture etched on it. It is going to be polished black granite with a vase on each side. I think it is beautiful and cannot wait to get it ordered and installed to their grave. That just doesn't even seem right? Their grave. Just seems so... cold... When I think of it, I think of how they laid, side by side, in that casket. It's all too real to me. I try daily to just push it out of my mind so I don't dwell on it all day. Some days I feel it never happened, like they never happened. Some days it hits me as soon as my feet hit the floor in the morning or I wake up thinking about them and I can't shake them from my mind for nothing, the drive to work is depressing, I can't help but look through their pictures all day just to feel close to them and when I get home, I find myself in their room, tracing my fingers over the impressions of their feet and opening the bags of their locks of hair I have and feeling how soft their hair is and remembering back to kneeling beside their beds at night and kissing them and rubbing their hair out of their face. Oh, how I miss my twins. I miss the relationship I had with each one of them. They were both so special to me. I pray everday that I remember more of them every minute! Gregg and I are about to be going through a very tough time in the next couple of weeks. We have to pack, which in one way is exciting because we will be moving in to our new dream house but on the other side of things, it is going to be so hard, so hard packing up their stuff and not unpacking it when we get to our new house, leaving all the memories in that little blue block house that we have. It's heartbreaking to think about. Please be in prayer for us over the next couple of weeks as we make this transition. That it will be a time of happiness and joyful tears as we relive each memory with them as we pack. That we will be able to smile with our tears of sadness. It is going to be so difficult.

I hope you all have a wonderful week!

14 comments:

ishatrisha said...

it feels weird to leave a comment about a door after where your post ended. but, i like the yellow door. i've been watch a lot of "curb appeal:the block" on HGTV, and they always paint the doors bright colors.

was their anything special about the color yellow to your twins? it could be a sweet reminder of something special everyday. just a thought.

i will keep you and your family in my prayers!

-trisha

The Stairs Family said...

Sorry, I have to agree with you- the yellow door is not my favorite. But maybe he's right, once there are rockers and plants out there it might calm the yellow a bit :)

Heather said...

Thinking and praying for you.

The Rogers Family said...

I love yellow, it is my favorite color!! Just never thought about it on a front door....
We will keep you in our prayers as the move is coming up..such a bittersweet time leaving behind and starting new..I know that yall will think of something creative to be a reminder of Brayden and Kenadi in the new home though..
God be with you all..

Party of Five said...
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Party of Five said...

Hi. Just wanted to tell you thanks for sharing your story. You have helped me to never take my kids or my (sometimes exhausting) job as a stay at home mom of 2 & 1/2 year old twins and a 16 month old for granted. You are so strong and I can't imagine how I would handle the situation if I were in your shoes. I will pray for you and your family during your move. Take care. Oh, and I love the yellow door!

Sharon and Michael said...

Just think of the pretty green grass and some flowers to mingle in with the yellow door. It will all pull together and not look like everyone else's house. Great job, Gregg!

Journey of the George's said...

I love the yellow door! I have been looking for a color for my "unpainted for 15 years" front door! I may try this!
I will be praying for you to have comfort as you pack and prepare for your move.

ACOOP said...

YELLOW is a bright and happy color! Perfect for your new house. I love it!!! Your lil girl is growing so quickly! Can you say adorable?

Jennifer said...

First, since you asked, I'm not digging the yellow door! BUT, it might be better once there's plants and grass and such. Second, I live in AL and there is a place in North AL that manufactures and sells headstones direct to the public. They are sold at a huge discount!!! Unfortunately, I know about this since I have also had to purchase for a child. Anyway, if you are interested, contact me and I will give you the rest of the information. I'm so sorry that you are in this position. I'm still praying for you!

Blessings,
Jennifer
jmminor@hotmail.com

Nene said...

I love love love the yellow door!

Jessica said...

I found your blog through Kelly's Korner. My heart breaks for you and everyone that knew and loved your sweet babies....your blog touches and inspires people every single day. I pray for peace for you.

I LOVE yellow....it's my favorite color (right after pink, of course!!) and I think once you have landscaping and such in, that it will tone down the brightness some. I think with the color of your house that an eggplant door would look goregous (if you decide the yellow is just too much)!!!

Misty said...

Meredith
Glad to hear you are putting the twins picture on their headstones. We did that with Madyson as well. Madyson's is also the black granite. I agree it is definitely a hard thing to do. You are so strong!!! I know our children are playing together laughing and playing as they watch their little sisters grow. MK is actually getting a Cabbage Patch for her birthday named Madyson Klaire that has Madyson's bday. I hope it helps her connect a little more with her big sister.

Misty

Cassandra said...

Hey Meredith, I don't really like the door Sorry but I don't know how it will work? It makes me think of school buses (not that we have those in NZ) and yes big bird.
Pick headstones is really hard. We decided to bury our daughter's Ashes in our Church's memorial garden and all the plaques have to be the same but even choosing the wording was excruiting. I think polished black granite will be beautiful. it makes me think of grand pianos (all that shiney) If we had had a choice I would have chosen polised black granite.
I remember feeling very overwhelmed during this time of choosing and also quite upset that the only thing we ever bought our daughter was a coffin and a headstone. ( still really upset about this.)
God bless you and Greg as you pack things up. Are you going to have some"room " in your new house for Brayden and Kenadi? A special way to keep some of their things out?