I know it has been too long since I posted last. You know that I am super busy holding and loving on this sweet blessing of mine! :) She is just precious! We dressed her up in her Alabama onsie, hat and socks saturday to help her pull the tide through with a wonderful win over the Florida Gators! We had to take her to get weighed and her bilirubin count checked again Sunday morning over at the hospital in Andalusia. She weighed 6lbs 4 oz on Friday at the doctor, and her bilirubin # was 10. Well PRAISE GOD she gained up to 6,9 and her bilirubin was 5! :) I was so happy! She has been a real good baby so far! She sleeps a LOT during the day and gets up about once or twice a night, depending on when we go to sleep. usually she is up between 2 and 3 and then again between 6 and 7 so it's really not too bad! I am enjoying every bit of it. Even though I am super sleepy sometimes, I love holding her and just staring at her. She looks so much like Brayden to me with Kenadi's complexion. Kenadi always had the prettiest complexion. It is so hard for me to believe how tiny she is. I was expecting a big baby! I love it though! :) Gregg and I have had some emotionally times and I know that our hurt will never go away, but at least we do have something to hope in and hope for again. I have had a pretty emotional day today. I have missed them terribly and am going through all the same "why" questions that come around every so often. I went in to their room today to get some extra hangers out of the closet in there and it just smelled so stale in there. Like a storage room. I sat on Brayden's bean bag and just cried. I wish so badly this wouldn't have happened. I changed Kaidi's diaper today and was thinking of how she was going to be as a big sister when we decide to have another one and my heart broke. I always wanted a boy the oldest so he could protect his younger siblings. I had that, I don't anymore. I know I will encounter many more obstacles and struggles of what we could have had or what could have been. I just try to push them back and look forward to what lies ahead. I prayed over Kaidi the other night. I asked God for his hand of protection over her and for her to live a long, healthy, happy, sucessful life.
Don't worry, I will add photos in the next post! :)